If I Were To Die (Illustrated cover) (Artificial Suicide)

Noah Sørensen knows all too well that life rarely follows the blueprints we draw for ourselves. Beneath the surface of every ambition lies the cold, indifferent hand of fate, ready to dismantle the structures we’ve spent years building. For Noah, his reality is defined by the echoes of his past—a collection of triumphs, devastating mistakes, and the lingering shadow of one person: Kaj Larsen. Growing up together in a stifling small town, Noah and Kaj spent their youth navigating the volatile transition into adulthood, only to find themselves falling into a love that felt both inevitable and dangerous. But their fragile bond was shattered by a singular, life-altering tragedy, setting off a chain reaction that forced them onto separate, painful paths. Years later, their worlds collide once more, dragging them into a volatile gray area where the barrier between magnetic attraction and bitter hatred has all but dissolved. Reconnecting is a reckless mistake, a collision course fueled by history and unhealed wounds. Despite knowing that chasing this ghost of the past is a recipe for absolute ruin, neither can summon the strength to resist their most primal, forbidden urges. The cycle begins again, but this time, the stakes are far higher than a broken heart.