If I Were To Die (Artificial Suicide Book 1)

Noah Sørensen has always believed that life is a puppet show directed by fate, with humans merely dancing on the strings of circumstances beyond their control. Behind his carefully constructed present lies a fractured history he thought he’d buried long ago, rooted in a quiet small town and the complicated, raw intensity of his first love: Kaj Larsen. Growing up together, Noah and Kaj moved from the awkward, electric confusion of adolescence into a deep, formative bond. But a singular, devastating tragedy shattered their reality, forcing them onto divergent paths and leaving them with scars that never truly faded. Years later, a collision of circumstances reunites them, reigniting a volatile connection that blurs the jagged line between magnetic attraction and burning resentment. Reconnecting feels like a catastrophic mistake—a doomed endeavor destined to end in heartbreak. Yet, the gravity between them is absolute, and neither man possesses the strength to resist the primal pull they thought they had outgrown. As they spiral back into each other’s orbits, they must face the painful echoes of their past before everything collapses once more. This is a story of obsession, buried secrets, and the dangerous volatility of love.