Every Breath After (Lost Boys Book 3): Part I

If all you can do is crawl, start crawling. —Rumi Not when it hits me-really hits me—that this is all I'll ever have of him. That this is the only way I can watch him, with my heart cracked open, and him no more the wiser to it. Because his heart's too busy beating for someone else, so loud it drowns out anyone else's. Drowns out mine. In a rhythm that was never meant for me. It took me two weeks to post my review for this book. @between_fiction_covers got me hooked on @authorjessiewalker's books and I knew this one would absolutely destroy me. Mason and Jeremy's story is simply devastating. The pining, the trauma, the realization of what they are to each other, and then the perfect cliffhanger ending... I read to escape, to feel, to play make believe. Every book of hers has hit so hard that I truly think about her characters every day. EBA is no exception. It's not a standalone, you'll want to read the prior books in the series but it's woven in so well. Seeing the other characters as kids, as adults, from other perspectives when you know what was going on behind closed doors was amazingly well done. I loved reading Phoebe's backstory and Mason's love for her. I got to see more of Shawn, and my Will and Way again do. Every line, every emotion, every heartbreak is so perfectly written to bring the reader into their world, I don't think I'll ever get over them. I'm not even bothering to put in a blurb here, bc no matter what I write, it won't do the characters justice.…

This book. Do I have emotions left? No I do not. My tear ducts are broken and my heart would like to know when I'll stop hurting my own feelings. The answer: NOT TODAY. I think the best way to describe this experience is like picturing the Shilohverse as a series of snapshots. During Will and Way, your viewfinder was zoomed in with them as your concentrated focus. You got glimpses of another lifetime but it was in support of their story. 𝑅𝑒𝓌𝒾𝓃𝒹. Little Bird Lost pulls back the timeline and not only gives you Izzy but teaches you about perspective - that it’s not always black and white. 𝘈𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘵 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘥 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨. 𝑅𝑒𝓌𝒾𝓃𝒹. 𝒫𝒶𝓃 𝑜𝓊𝓉. Every Breath After is like hitting rewind again and attaching the wide angle lens…then watching the world explode. All of that history in Will and Way...all of those moments you thought were there to support their story…the perspective was off and everything you thought you understood and started to heal from? You don't. And you’re not. This is one of the most wildly satisfying books I've ever read - while simultaneously being one of the most devastating. It deepens your understanding of every interaction, and every character that we’ve met up to this point. It hurts but it’s beautiful - and god, can I just get some bubble wrap for Jeremy and hug Mason for the rest of his life. Jeremy is…something else. I love them all but his character is so special to me; I’m not sure I’ve ever wanted to protect a…